Frustrations (Power Rangers Zeo)

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Summary: Billy is frustrated by his inability to take on the new power. (Pieces of Gold storyline)


This piece happens in the evening after the events of "A Golden Homecoming", maybe a few days before the events of "King Mondo's Last Stand".

Frustrations
by Estirose



It's over now.

Jason's got the power, was able to do what I was incapable of. Seems to be the story of my life. Yes, I know that I mean a whole lot to the team, but sometimes I don't feel like I can do anything right.

Take this afternoon, for example. It's been over a year since I had my powers. Yeah, I've done a lot of good at the Command Center, but I've always itched to be out fighting monsters with the rest of my friends instead of being stuck in support. So, what happens when I get a chance to be a Ranger again? It turns out I can't.

I feel kind of ashamed that I'm envious of Jason. We've been good friends for so many years, and kept in touch with each other since he went to that conference. And he is an excellent alternative for taking the golden powers. We're just lucky that he just came back to Angel Grove.

But it still angers me that he was able to absorb the power when I wasn't. I've been on the team longer than he has. I should have been able to. Damn negative protons.

I don't even know if I can use a regular zeo crystal now.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the team's handyman - necessary, but usually ignored. Everybody has known what it feels like to be powerless. There's something about having the power that makes up for all the wounds and bruises and disruptions in your life. And when you lose the power, but you're still around, the others tend to avoid you. Avoid being around someone who's part of the team, but powerless.

I'm still here. I'm still involved. No matter what. This is my planet we're saving, after all.

But I'd still like to have my powers back.

-End