Writing on the fly (and other things)
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estinoseI have to admit, I write a lot on the fly. I'm a bit impatient, so I don't always remember to get a beta reader. I'm also rather prolific, which is why certain kinds of fic got spun off to estorise. I'm not always sure of the quality of the unbeta'd stuff.
I sometimes go back and rewrite things. There's a post a few pages back in![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
estorise that I'm fiddling with, because one of the OCs went a bit OOC. (I always have a difficult time writing Kiyoe and Ramon in the same scene; Kiyoe is sensibly hurt and scared by Ramon, and Ramon isn't getting why Kiyoe has a problem.) I won't link it here because it's the sequel to "One's Place", where I do have the second half written and sitting on IJ, but will probably need revising at least minorly.
I wrote a fic yesterday called "Closer Call", which has a NSFW bit or two. This morning I looked at it and while I didn't precisely rewrite it, certain bits needed fleshing out. Badly. So I did another draft before work.
In general, I don't put "adult" fics out for public consumption. Part of this is because I don't like getting the details wrong in public. I'm a woman of unspecified sexual orientation, not a guy of any orientation. This is not to say that I don't fantasize, or haven't written sex scenes with other writers for private consumption; I just don't post 'em.
This year, I've had two fics that at least skirted close: "Monster in her Child" and "Closer Call". "Monster" has a non-consentual part, which does fade to black, because it's not only non consentual, but the perpetrator is very young. I didn't need to be explicit; the event very clearly takes place, and the victim is still dealing with it years later. You can see the very beginning of what happened, though, which at times makes it an uncomfortable read (and not fun to write). This is also, I think, makes it hard for me to read "Furry Children" and "Baby's First Word", because I know Ramon's intentions, even if the audience doesn't.
As a contrast, there's the consentual events of "Closer Call". Wataru wants to simultaneously wants to obey Nago and take over the position of King. He also wants to not be sick and he doesn't want Nago and Taiga to kill one another.
He wants to be in touch with his sexuality - which he associates a lot with Nago at the moment. This is compounded by the fact that Taiga tends to choose the worst moments to check in. I suspect he'll get more blase and less under Nago's control as he gets more experience, but for right now, it's all new to him.
There's more reason to be explicit here, at least trying to explore Wataru's feelings (which the draft currently up could probably use some work on) and sensations. The fic is about Wataru and his attempt to get "experience", after all.
The fact it's not explicit ties, again, to the fact that I don't want to get the sex wrong. That's why Taiga interrupts here. Maybe someday, I'll give Wataru a chance to get it in full; he's going to need it....
I sometimes go back and rewrite things. There's a post a few pages back in
estorise that I'm fiddling with, because one of the OCs went a bit OOC. (I always have a difficult time writing Kiyoe and Ramon in the same scene; Kiyoe is sensibly hurt and scared by Ramon, and Ramon isn't getting why Kiyoe has a problem.) I won't link it here because it's the sequel to "One's Place", where I do have the second half written and sitting on IJ, but will probably need revising at least minorly.I wrote a fic yesterday called "Closer Call", which has a NSFW bit or two. This morning I looked at it and while I didn't precisely rewrite it, certain bits needed fleshing out. Badly. So I did another draft before work.
In general, I don't put "adult" fics out for public consumption. Part of this is because I don't like getting the details wrong in public. I'm a woman of unspecified sexual orientation, not a guy of any orientation. This is not to say that I don't fantasize, or haven't written sex scenes with other writers for private consumption; I just don't post 'em.
This year, I've had two fics that at least skirted close: "Monster in her Child" and "Closer Call". "Monster" has a non-consentual part, which does fade to black, because it's not only non consentual, but the perpetrator is very young. I didn't need to be explicit; the event very clearly takes place, and the victim is still dealing with it years later. You can see the very beginning of what happened, though, which at times makes it an uncomfortable read (and not fun to write). This is also, I think, makes it hard for me to read "Furry Children" and "Baby's First Word", because I know Ramon's intentions, even if the audience doesn't.
As a contrast, there's the consentual events of "Closer Call". Wataru wants to simultaneously wants to obey Nago and take over the position of King. He also wants to not be sick and he doesn't want Nago and Taiga to kill one another.
He wants to be in touch with his sexuality - which he associates a lot with Nago at the moment. This is compounded by the fact that Taiga tends to choose the worst moments to check in. I suspect he'll get more blase and less under Nago's control as he gets more experience, but for right now, it's all new to him.
There's more reason to be explicit here, at least trying to explore Wataru's feelings (which the draft currently up could probably use some work on) and sensations. The fic is about Wataru and his attempt to get "experience", after all.
The fact it's not explicit ties, again, to the fact that I don't want to get the sex wrong. That's why Taiga interrupts here. Maybe someday, I'll give Wataru a chance to get it in full; he's going to need it....
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